Hello world! Woke up feeling like complete and utter garbage today. Doing marginally better now, thankfully, but we'll see how long that lasts. The state of the world is horrible and misery is seeping deep into my bones. Being alive is fun, sometimes, but I have a tendency to lament over why exactly I had to be born now. The fact that every time other than this one would have been just as horrible is usually enough to knock me back into reality. I'd like to afford a house one day.
I want to fall in love. I'd like to live long enough to get married. Everything I hear recently makes me feel like that's more of a fantasy, and that this world won't last long enough for me to do any of those things. I try not to lose hope in people, and remind myself that instriniscally, people are good, because they must be good, because people have always needed to rely on each other, but somedays it's hard not to feel empty and mournful of a world that could have been. Tomorrow, I will wake up and go to school, and the world will continue to turn, because in the end, I am nobody at all, to anyone but myself.